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crazysingergirl

Published: Jun 30, 2009

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^{it is two fifty-eight in the morning. i wake up with
your image slipping away from behind my eyelids
to discover that my face is experiencing an uncomfortable
combination of clammy and dirty as a result of dried, caked
salt-tears streaked by a fresh flow, which is also spilling
into my hair and pillow. i wipe my skin fresh and return to bed,
succumbing to a numb, fitful, dreamless sleep.
it is the fourth night in a row that this has happened.

i would tell you how i feel about you, but my brain is
too fried to process the concept of love. you are the
electric jolt dancing up and down my nervous system,
sending the axioms jumping, mingling, colliding
in a frenzy, like a floundering school of fish caught in
a net. all that i wait for is for the furious crimsons and
flash-white lightning to die into dull grey static
that whines in the space between my ears.

and when i've muffled my lone goose cries down to the
murmur of the pigeon's coos, i will cover my ears
in hopes of silence, but as they always have,
the traces of your presence will disallow me that relief.
geese mate for life. i just chose a duck.}

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^{I SWEAR THIS IS NOT ME. it is the girl living inside my head. she doesn't think it's too comfortable there.

dear boy,
things would be so much easier if you helped me put everything to an end and gave me hurtful words so that i would never write these pieces again. ever.}